This month has been pretty amazing in that I feel I have gone into the new year putting my best feet forward. We started out the month spending New Years Eve with family in Flagstaff, we played in the snow and enjoyed our adventure. I started college back up with a dedication to finally finish my degree. I have spent countless hours studying, reading and writing. I am taking Sociology, World Religions, Music History the rock era and Introduction to Cinema. It has led me to learn about indigenous people, immigration, statistics, how to critically listen to a song, silent movies and the great Charlie Chaplin. I am enjoying it very much. My relationship is growing and moving into a great direction and I feel we are in a really really good place. The relationships I have with my family and my sons have flourished and we have grown closer. I have read more than anything in my spare time and have cooked some wonderful meals. I am taking care of myself better, I go to the dentist almost weekly in an effort to bring back my smile to what it used to be and with each visit confidence grows. I have found a great homeopathic Dr. which I like very much and am doing the vitamin B12 shots and start a 6 week detoxification Friday. I pay attention to what I am putting in my body. That being said I need to find more time to be outdoors doing something active. I would like to start my yoga classes. I need to find the quiet time to practice spiritual things. I try to keep up on everything but to say I am busy is an understatement. I am living. Many good things have happened this month, I can say that they are due in large part to my sobriety. Thank god for that and that it has allowed me to find myself again. I never want to be back in that place again..that drinking place. It seems like it just sucks the quality of life right out of me. Every day I struggle a bit to undo the damage I have done..mend relationships and mend myself...every day I grow a little more and am challenged a little more and am learning the right steps to get through those difficult times. It hasn't been easy by any means, I am still haunted by the mistakes of my past but I made it another month and I am very proud of myself.
I am excited for February because for me it means there will be lots of love to spread around. The theme for the whole month will be Love related. Think Shakespeare,Valentines, Chocolate and poetry.... Oh how I love February. As I say goodbye to January I can say I have made some pretty good memories. I am glad I have had the opportunity to share them with you and to chronicle my life in this way. I am glad to be paying attention to this blog and caring for it, even if only for me to appreciate I recognize that it is important to just keep writing even if I may not feel like it even if I think what I have to say is somewhat mundane just keep writing it down. It is these words that reflect the days of my life and what a beautiful life it is....
Nothing can cure the soul but the senses, just as nothing can cure the senses but the soul. - Oscar Wilde
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