Mondays "Whats Happenin"

I don't know who turned this show on but for the last hour while my husband sleeps the TV has been on  OWN ( Oprah Winfrey Network) & whatever show this is there are a whole gaggle of overweight women in their undies on TV for the world to see..oh the humility. I think it is some kinda of weight loss challenge but in front of thousands of people in your undies..when thinks look well pretty bad..really who does that? I had a very relaxing weekend ...with my husband working all weekend and my older boys with their dad I flew solo though it and decided to postpone said Xmas in July as my 5 year old just wouldn't appreciate the fake vomit and prime rib, there will be another time for that tomfoolery..After months of agonizing over making this decision I have decided that I will be taking a sabbatical..I have decided to give myself an unspecified amount of time to grow, learn, focus on school..family..spirituality..and go wherever the road takes me. This wasn't an easy decision to come by, I am part of a successful business but the reality of it is it isn't mine anymore, I lost it in the divorce. Although it has been a joy to be a part of the last 15 years and what I have learned has been immeasurable I think the only reason I am there every day still working morning to night is because I enjoy being with my ex husband as much as that allows, after all 18 years together is a long time but I am married again now to a wonderful man, as much as it pains me to do so I have to let it go..and I have a PhD to complete, internships to get involved with, a family that needs me here more..it just doesn't fit into my life now. This is going to pain me for some time but I know I have made the right decision... On a lighter note school starts next week and I have some upcoming postings about fun stuff for the school year. I know some people have food blogs, some have humour or fashion or just family stuff..it may seem like mine is all over the place sometimes..but that's just me I may go off on a rant one day about the economy in China, share a painting that moves me yet tell you what I cooked for dinner and share a photo here and there but I always keep it real, life isn't perfect and that's the beauty of it... and besides I never really did fit in anyways.