The End of May 2010

Has found me & it has been a little while since my last posting but I have been living life and documenting less of it. I have been hugging my children, making meals, going to work,watching TV, drinking coffee, listening to music and doing some things I probably shouldn't be. I would rather be completely ridiculous than boring!I am obsessed with the Salton Sea and it really has been eating up my blogging time and I have started a documentery I now must finish:) But I need to make time for putting into words these days of my life. While uncanny and abnormal what a joy each and every day to raise these boys and make them happy:) I have so much to write about Palm Springs The Sea San Diego and other pieces of inspiration I am working on but tonight I am in a somber mood due to the passing of Ben Ricketts, a little guy but 22 months old that passed away accidentaly. After lots of prayers this little man brought so many people closer to Christ. May he be in gods hands. I have a heavy heart tonight so I'm not going to write much more other than I will be holding my boys a little tighter and giving them a special treat in honor of this man. May god bless his soul.



I cannot live with you,


by Emily Dickinson



I cannot live with you,

It would be life,

And life is over there

Behind the shelf



The sexton keeps the key to,

Putting up

Our life, his porcelain,

Like a cup



Discarded of the housewife,

Quaint or broken;

A newer Sevres pleases,

Old ones crack.



I could not die with you,

For one must wait

To shut the other's gaze down,--

You could not.



And I, could I stand by

And see you freeze,

Without my right of frost,

Death's privilege?



Nor could I rise with you,

Because your face

Would put out Jesus'.

That new grace



Glow plain and foreign

On my homesick eye,

Except that you, than he

Shone closer by.



They'd judge us--how?

For you served Heaven, you know

Or sought to;

I could not,



Because you saturated sight,

And I had no more eyes

For sordid excellence

As Paradise.



And were you lost, I would be,

Though my name

Rang loudest

On the heavenly fame.



And were you saved,

And I condemned to be

Where you were not,

That self were hell to me.



So we must keep apart,

You there, I here,

With just the door ajar

That oceans are,

And prayer,

And that pale svustenance,

Despair!

Favorite Molments 2010

Sunday

Strawberry Nails look so Bitchen Don't they???

Mine However do not...Nail salons all closed today...sigh

Oh Hello 2010 (Belated) Pleasure to meet you!

I made it through the Holidays in one piece thank the lord. We had a great Christmas full of lots of fine presents...good food...the parties were a success..the Christmas dress amazingly fit..New Years Eve was off the wall..had a lot of fun (much to the boyfriends dismay) ..January was a bang up time too..as a matter of fact by the end of it I regained my sanity, finally got a mani/pedi last week and at some point after all the "hoopla" and spiked eggnog I took a step back and said whew that was a blast but its a new year now ladies (and gentleman) and what a year it has been so far..amazing possibilities await and I may just suprise myself this year in more ways then one..hmmmm. In recent days there has been a sweet Valentines Day dinner at restauraunt Avalon...chocolates...roses..jewelry..playtime with the boys..Jakes first camping trip...rain..a new car..(goodbye Tahoe Hello sporty little black beemer) Marriage proposals from people I barely knew...an aching back..an enlarged thyroid..lots of rain..sleepy mornings...a few rooms to be re-done..

This seems like a lot;) But I took a step back no more libations for me for a good month and then some, I feel at peace now and am restoring peace in my life as well. No resolutions just finally opening my mind to the New Year and realizing Spring is almost here..Spring is full of sunny breezy days love and magic..I may need to post often as I forsee there being lots to tell:)

Elvis 21 Can't wait to Check this Out!!!

The following article found on NPR  Upcoming Traveling Exhibit Starts in Jan 10 Can't Wait!!!

November 10, 2006 - Elvis Presley and America were both at a crossroads in 1956. The singer was popular, but not widely known. The nation was waking up from the doldrums of the post-war Eisenhower era, ready for something new.




In many ways, it was a year that would change the social landscape of a generation. A new collection of photos by Al Wertheimer, Elvis at 21: New York to Memphis, captures that moment in time when a young man from Tupelo, Miss., shot from being a regional heartthrob to an international sensation.



Wertheimer was working as a freelance photographer in New York when RCA Records hired him to follow the entertainer as he toured from New York City back to his home in Memphis, Tenn.



In January of 1956, Presley was still playing high school gymnasiums. But by December, he was the most famous entertainer in the world. Presley didn't just light up American culture, he put a torch to it.



Wertheimer took more than 3,000 photos that captured Presley in his most intimate moments. A show from the book debuts Friday at the Govinda Gallery in Washington, D.C., and will tour around the nation.

Happy Holidays~~

How come 13 yr old boys no longer want to help decorate the tree!!:)

Pre Decorations

Oh how I just so love this time of year. I was thinking today of how it's so true what they say, this time of year really brings out the best and worse in people...Let's face it things are busier than normal, finances can become stressed and sometimes ones own family can be the source of the madness that becomes the holidays. I see it moreso now in the voices of my customers when I have to break them the "bad news" that a vehicle repair will be expensive..and I feel it as I have been worn down lately feeling overwhelmed in many ways and a little fatigued as well, which is how I usually react when things get a little out of control. Like the laundry, the house, staying on top of things with my kids, finishing the Christmas shopping, finding time to take care of myself (pedicure manicure anyone whats that..haircut badly needed)...It can almost suck the holiday spirit right out of a person. Coupled with the fact that I have 2 birthday parties to plan and tentative houseguests right after Christmas I have found myself secretly wishing the holidays away on a few occasions for which I hold a bit of guilt for doing so..Afterall this is a magical time for the children and that magic is up to me to create and make sure the next few weeks are filled with happiness and fun stuff...I have been re-evaluting a lot in the last few days.. Old traditions namely and feel I am at a point in my life to create some of my own. Afterall I have my own family now (well sans husband). I no longer want to run here and there every Christmas Eve. I'd much rather be home cooking...opening early presents...going to midnight mass...watching funny Christmas movies...heck I even think Chinese food on X-Mas Eve leading up to the big dinner on Christmas Day may be kind of kitchy and fun..who knows? What I do know is that I will have to delicately break the news to other members of my family. How do you say " Nope not coming for Christmas anymore"..I spose in some ways you just can't without hurting someones feelings. Maybe it's selfish of me to think this way. But I am not very close with my family to begin with and at some point they probably expect this..I am giving it some thought and am really on the fence. My boyfriend and I are spending our second Christmas together and in a lot of ways his insistance for having a few family memebers-friends here on Christmas morning while the kids open presents feel like I am in a house full of strangers and completely uncomfortable in my own home. The mere mention of this puts my boyfriend on the defense. While we get along great and rarely have a disagreement he is very loyal to his family and to mention anything beyond what has already been said would border on him taking it personal. Sometimes in a relationship you have to make small sacrifices and I know everything willbe okay as it was last year. On a good note I have gotten quite a bit of Christmas shopping done. I have the boys birthdays...few more Christmas things...and my Dad to buy for but most of the presents  are wrapped under the tree which is decorated with mostly handmade ornaments from my children. Charlie did a fantastic job of hanging Christmas lights and I love that I can cuddle into my flannel snowman sheets and watch them change colors and blink and dance outside the window. It has been cold as well...yay! With the hot AZ sun blazing mostly all year I am welcoming the 35 degree lows and 56 degree highs....bring it on! Fountain Hills looks so prettly with a light dusting of snow on the mountain ranges around town...especially 4 Peaks..for which I have a fantastic almost 360 degree view from my upstairs patio. Getting all this off my chest is really good therapy for me right now, if I don't I will scream and spend too many more mornings not wanting to get out of bed and that just cant be. It is okay to be depressed sometimes, for me it's all about routine and getting into one that makes me feel better....so tomorrow I will try and wake up earlier take care of myself a little better and forge on...enough grey gloomy stuff I am actually pretty excited to go to Zoolights this weekend, make cookies and bake the rest of the weekend, go see the Nutcracker next week, have a whole almost 2 weeks off, throw the boys an awesome birthday party, have a bitchin work Christmas party, finish up the bowling league (only 3 games left, even if I am a cheerleader:) , spend New Years at The Camelback Inn with dinner at Christophers..and find church again in the coming weeks..Maybe there will be time for a manicure or a haircut in there somewhere who knows...but we will be making memories and that is what counts the most...Your children only get one childhood and in a lot of ways I feel like a kid myself this time of year..Not that anyones reading this but if you are ( Helllooooo)  how are you coping with the holidays??